DIVORCE: That word stings everytime I hear it and say it. Amazingly, the blow gets consistently softer. 7 years together, 5 years married, I never imagined we would be here. Living in the same State separately, celebrating birthdays, anniversaries, and holidays, SEPARATELY! Handling finances separately, existing as individuals, and no longer a whole.
One of the most uncomfortable moments in my life was mutually agreeing on heartbreak. In the next few blogs, (Deactivated Eskridge Series) I will take you on my journey as an upcoming divorcee. I've heard the cliche thoughts on divorced women. They seem so free, happy and are quick to tell you to be strong. They tell you how they one day woke up, and MAGICALLY let go and let God! They tell you they kept moving forward, and are now happily ever! #YeahRight
You won't find that here, with me. 😊
Ultimately, you will see my strength and strides to get above this "Death" of Marriage, but it's how I've paced and prevailed in this journey that's most important . Healing is the END GAME! I encourage a young wifecurrently battling the ins and outs of her marriage to be better, wiser, and stronger than I was. This also applies to a young divorcee struggling with the pain, and feels it's all too much. I pray that I can touch and invest all I've learned and accomplished so far, in you.
Deciding divorce was not easy, nor was it something I was prepared for. I actually wait for those moments of clarity, daily! Whether you make the choice to divorce, or you choose to fix your marriage; know that it is all mutually controlled. You can't fight in a ring by yourself, and if you're fighting alone; it's already ROUND 12 & you've lost. I will end every entry with the hopes that my thoughts have helped heal, and thankful because as I minister to you, I minister to myself.